its tuesday

So last night i went to join the gym . i did the ellipitcal, i only did about 30 minutes. the sweat really hurt my sunburn. so i wonder how it might feel tonight. the sunburn doesnt hurt as much today. so im going to the gym right after work well after i get off the second job . I cant wait, until i can get passed this stage and get healthy.

Late last night i went to the movies to see The Hangover, what a funny movie. I needed that, Ive been so sad that I just needed a good laugh. I went with my friend Gabby which is my ex's brothers girlfriend. I told her that I dont want to know anything about my ex or who ever he is dating, bc you know I could use her as a spy. But like i said before, i need to get over that part of my life. She actually thinks Im taking it a lot better than she expected. I mean come on, I got a great life to live. I have wonderful friends and family. I cant be sitting in my house all lonely crying over him anymore. Do you think he is sitting at home crying over me? AH NO! So why give him that power?

I will tell you this, I do miss him. Im not going to lie. I honestly dont know what i would do if he tried to come back. I know I know, but im human. I will tell you this he would have to work hard and change a little to have me back. He is a really good guy but just has a horrible attitude when he is tired and stressed out. I just cant take that anymore. He needs to take care of himself and do stuff for himself right now. I do miss his family too.

So enough about him. ITS ALL ABOUT ME! I might bring him up though bc I did say I was trying to mend my broken heart in this process. I mean I did lose the love of my life, well at least to this point. So thats all i have to say for now, i might be back later or just tomorrow.